I hope you read this one day ❤
So here I am. Instead of getting your snacks ready for tomorrow or ironing your uniform, i’m having a moment.
Tomorrow is a big day for you and it’s a big day for me too.
You are off to School. You’re 5 and a half (the half is hugely important) and your academic journey is about to begin properly.
You’re nervous.
I’m nervous.
You’re excited.
I’m excited for you.
I remember my first day of school (unbelievable I know as you constantly remind me that i’m old 🤣) but I do. I remember the butterflies in my tummy, the excitement of the unknown. Making friends, learning new things, getting to sit at a school desk. Nowadays they seem like trivial moments but you will be on cloud 9 tomorrow. I promise.
You are so outgoing, a quality I am so envious of, but I was the same at your age. Being able to see the good and magic in everyone and everything. You are so good at that. You melt my heart.
I don’t know how i’ll be tomorrow. As a parent I always accidentaly wish your life away. From the moment you were born I imagined you walking. From the moment you walked I imagined you talking. From the moment you talked (and haven’t stopped talking since 😂) I imagined you going to school. How you would find it, if you would like it.
But now it’s here. The moment we put on your uniform and your Dad and I wave you in, our hearts gushing with pride. I promise i’ll try not to cry infront of you and embarrass you.
Don’t get me wrong, there are days when you absolutely do my head in and I can’t wait until I have time to myself 😂 days when we bicker and fight, days when i’m exhausted and you don’t stop talking, days when you’re grumpy with me for no reason🙈
But you’re my best friend. You’re the thing i’m most proud of in the whole world and deep down, i’ll be lost when you’re at school all day.
There will come a time in the future when i’ll let you see this. Maybe this is your first day of Uni, if that’s the path you chose. Maybe it’s your wedding day, or your first day of work. I’ll read it to you when the moment is right.
I just want you to know how much I love you. How proud I am of you and how excited I am for you to be on this journey. You will have ups and downs. You will make best friends and have massive fall-outs. You will have days that are brilliant and days that are rubbish. And on all of the days good or bad, I’ll be there to listen. To help. To support you and if needs be, challenge another parent if their kid is being a butt face 😂
I want you to enjoy every single second. The past 6 months have been really trying for everyone and you have handled it all so well, I know you’ll be just fine.
Go tomorrow, flourish, absorb and continue being the positive kind, sassy soul that you are.
Be kind.
Be happy.
Do your best and that’s all I can ask as your Mum.
This is a new chapter in both of our lives. ❤ I have to let you go a little bit. I don’t know if i’m ready for it but you are. You are sooo ready. And tomorrow, just enjoy it. Enjoy being surrounded by children again. Enjoy playtimes and reading time and whatever else they do these days.
It’s an adventure, and I can’t wait to hear all about it. 🥰🥰
Now, i best go and chop the carrots into sticks as that’s all you’ve been going on about for the past few days 🙄🤣
Much love xxx