It’s been a strange old year, hasn’t it?
As i’m sitting planning Christmas gifts ( I know it’s only October but needs must) i’ve realised how quick this year has gone and how for the most part, i’ve forgotten to live it.
For the past 12 months i’ve been unable to trust myself, trust my gut and so decided the best option was to never put myself in a position where I had to. I have been in a safe place. I built a wall. Nobody was allowed in……so in turn, it meant nobody could scale the wall and leave me a ruin 💁♀️
The saying goes “when something seems too good to be true, it usually is“. Yes, it might seem quite a negative dismissive outlook to have but i’m realising more and more that there can be a lot of truth behind it.
More than once in my life my gut has told me that things weren’t right. I however, chose not to listen. I allowed my worries to be pushed down by others and believe what they were telling me instead. I’ve always wanted to believe in people, see the good in them and invest my heart and soul. When they look me in the eye and tell me they feel a certain way, or that things will get better, why shouldn’t I believe that? Why shouldn’t I trust someone? Whereas actually, I should trust myself and my feeling of unease.
It’s crazy that it has taken me so long to realise that my Gut was never the problem. This whole year i’ve been afraid to live, love or take chances because I couldn’t trust my own instincts. I’ve missed so many opportunities. BUT……
Trusting and believing in people isn’t a bad thing. It can be wonderful and bring so much joy. I guess though, it’s also a risk. Life needs a bit of risk from time to time though, right? 😉😁
So, if like me you have walls up, if you’ve been hurt, if you’ve wasted time hating yourself rather than trusting yourself remember it won’t last forever.
Things will get better ❤
Much Love xxx